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Letters to CA legislators [Jan. 25th, 2006|07:29 pm]
[mood | inspired]

Look at me, keeping up with my journal :D  In Religion, we just spent a couple of weeks discussing the fifth commandment: You shall not kill (Read: You shall respect life and honor human dignity). I introduced and facilitated discussion around all kinds of life issues: abortion, capital punishment, euthanasia, gangs and violence, poverty, suicide, education and health care, pollution, etc. Below you'll find the letters my kids wrote to Congresswoman Anna Eshoo and Senator Dianne Feinstein. They all chose life issues important to them and brainstormed ways to make change. In a couple of days I'll post to my Yahoo Photos an album of pictures they drew to send with their letters. They know they have a voice. Props to my little activists! (I'm making sure NOT to include this on my Americorps timesheet :P )

Letters to legislators:

I am William Molina and I’m a student from Holy Family School. I live in Newerk, California. I will try to convince teenagers not to be involved in gangs. Gangs are bad because they can be in jail or get killed. I will explain to them that it is very important to finish school and be educated. I hope you can help teenagers have an education. Thank you for reading my letter. Sincerely, William Molina

I am Ruth Gomez. I am nine. I go to Holy Family School. I live in Redwood City, California. Abortion is the life issue I care most about. This life issue is important to me because the babies don’t get to live. Abortion is also important to me because they don’t get to live in God’s world. A way I can change in my community is by staying away from gangsters. A way I can change at home is by listening to my parents’ commands. A way I can change at school is by listening. A way others can change at their home is by throwing garbage in the trashcan. A way others can change in their school is by studying. A way others can change in their community is by solving their own problems. Thank you, Ruth Gomez

My name is Adan Molina and I go to school at Holy Family School. I live in Redwood City. I want no gangs walking the street. They scare everyone away and they kill each other. It is very wrong to kill and take life away. I promise not to hurt others. I promise not to get involved in gangs and I will not take drugs. I will respect my family and others. Thank you for reading my letter, Adan Molina.

I am Jimmy Burga. I am in 4th grade. I also go to Holy Family School. I would like all of us to make a big change in the world. So I would like other people to stop polluting the world. They can do that by stop throwing the gasoline down the sewers. They also kill a lot of animals. Some people don’t like that. Remember, we could make a big change in the world. Sincerely, Jimmy Burga

My name is Jessica Palominos. I go to school at Holy Family School. I live in Redwood City, California. The issue I care most about is gangs. I think gangs are a bad example for children. Some children look at gangs and want to be just like them, but if they do we are never going to have a nice community. I think we should talk with kids and tell them what gangs do. Then our world could be a better place. Gangs could look cool sometimes but what they do is not cool. Thank you for reading my letter. Respectfully, Jessica Palominos

My name is Sergio Castro. I go to a school named Holy Family School and I am in 4th grade. I live in Redwood City, California. The gangs kill the people just because of the color of their clothes. We have too many gangs. They might rule the earth. Many people are killed because of them. The people are scared because gangs may kill them or beat them up. I can stop the gangs by putting up signs that say NO MORE GANGS! I will do this because I am scared of them too. The people can build schools for people to get out of gangs and start a better life or you can make a law to stop gangs. Thank you for reading my letter. Love, Sergio Castro

Hi, my name is Jennifer. I go to Holy Family School. I live in Redwood City. I think that there should not be gangs and drugs. Also, there should be no more violence in our community. This issue is important to me so people do not die. Also, that they do not go to jail. I can change this issue by cleaning up, and by being helpful in our community by doing good things, not bad ones. Others can change it too by not joining gangs or selling drugs for money. Thank you for reading my letter. Sincerely, Jennifer Galeana

My name is Danya Gonzalez. I am ten years old. I also go to Holy Family School. I live in Fremont. I want to be a doctor when I grow up. I really don’t like it when moms abort because each person has their life. I also think that a baby has the right to live. It is important to me because I care about people. It is also important because babies are so cute. I also think that a baby is very special. I wouldn’t have liked it if my mom had to abort. I can change this by telling moms it is not a good idea to abort. That person might think about it and not abort. I might also tell them that their mom did not abort them, so they would think about it and be a good mom. Others can change this by praying and by saying to them to love their son. They might also tell others not to abort. And we can grow our environment. Thank you for reading my letter. Sincerely, Danya Gonzalez

My name is Cesar Salazar. I go to Holy Family School. I live in Redwood City, California. Please stop the killing. Please stop the gangs. They cause a lot of trouble. Put up more cameras so that the United States could be safer. It causes more violence and we lose our people. Can you make speeches so that people can stop the killing and gangs? Make speeches so that everybody could listen. Also stop this killing in prison. Everybody has a life to live. Thank you. Sincerely, Cesar Salazar

My name is Melissa. My school is Holy Family School. I live in East Palo Alto, California. I care about the elderly because when the elderly get hurt I get scared. The elderly are important to me because I care for old people and I love my grandparents. I could change killing in my community by praying for others. Other people can change killing by reading the Bible or doing something that helps. Thank you for reading my letter, Melissa Maza

I am Uriel Lujan and I am an artist. My dream is to paint the Eiffel Tower and to become an artist. I live in Redwood City on Farm Hill Road. The things that I love are caring. As an artist, I want to change my life to a person that helps people. One change I want is to get ride of gangs. Thank you for reading, Uriel Lujan

My name is Diana Cisneros. I go to school at Holy Family School. I live in Redwood City. I don’t want any more gangs. That way we can have peace. Gangs are causing people to get killed. It is important because we don’t want people getting killed. We can call the police when somebody is trying to rob somebody. We can put up signs so they won’t kill. Sincerely, Diana Cisneros

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Some words from my kiddos! [Jan. 24th, 2006|09:09 pm]
[mood | content]

Here are some things my kids are writing these days. The following are snippets of homework I've assigned to them over the past couple of weeks. This year's Religion curriculum centers on the Ten Commandments, and we're currently discussing the sixth, "You shall not commit adultery." Tomorrow and Friday I'll be giving the "birds and the bees" spiel to my girls. I'm looking forward to it! I'll let you know how that goes.

We just spent two weeks on the fifth commandment, "You shall not kill," and I can't wait to post the letters they just wrote to their Congresswoman and Senator about life issues they're concerned about. And now for my little wise ones...

"You shall not kill" word webs (5th Commandment):

Danya – You shall not be rude to God!

Diana – You shall not because Jesus is going to get mad at you.

Jimmy – You shall not bully people around your school. Do not spread your anger around the world. Do not kill and hurt little girls.

Uriel – I will not destroy a heart.

Sergio – You shall not disrespect the sea. You shall not throw garbage. You shall respect nature. You shall not murder animals.

Jennifer – You shall make peace with enemies.

Jessica – You shall not pollute the air. You shall not kill animals.

 

"Who am I?" Questionnaire:

(Besides the most obvious answers regarding name, age, school, etc., here are some of their responses. For the most part, I tried to pick out a couple of the most unique comments from each of them.)

Jennifer – My parents are the best. I made my First Communion.

Danya – I like to eat soup. I like to help elderly and poor.

Jessica – I have pets and they are three fish and one dog. I have nice friends.

Uriel – I mostly spend my time doing art and playing with clay. I am a pre-artist.

William – I am a son of God. I will live for love and peace.

Diana – My bestest friend is Cesar. We have met since we were little.

Adan – I am a human. I come in peace.

Ruth – I’m Catholic. I love dogs. I like to play outside.

Sergio – I have a mom and dad. My sisters’ names are Rachel and Medelyn.

Melissa – I am a human being and I love others. I am funny and talented.

Jimmy – I am a person who is always happy and would like to see other people with happy faces. On Saturday I like to help my mom out when my baby sister is getting taken care of. My favorite animals are my two teacup Chihuahuas. In this year my favorite story has been called Mom’s Ring. In school my favorite subject is science because it shows you nature’s beauty. For now my favorite sport is basketball because I am on a team of basketball. I like it when my grandma comes to my house because she talks to me about the Bible. My favorite foods are hamburgers and at home are chicken wings. In my heart my biggest wish is for the war to stop because a lot of innocent people are dying. God gave me an opportunity of living and of going to this special school. That’s why when I grow up I want to help the same people that helped me.

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Still stretching... [Jan. 24th, 2006|09:07 pm]
[mood | overworked]

Topics, topics… topics aren’t my primary hindrance. There are myriad subjects to delve into right now. There always are. Time and energy – motivation – that’s what I feel so short on. When my days are so crammed with high-pressure, fast-paced lists of to-do’s, the last thing I want to do is come home and sit in front of a computer. I don’t want this blog to be just another To Do.

Last night I went out with my buddy, Cole, and a bunch of his friends who all share January as their birth month. Fifteen or so of us met at a Japanese steakhouse for some incredible sushi and spicy seafood dishes. Oh my God, if my mouth could orgasm, dinner last night is what that would feel like. So many great flavors! And I had sake for the first time. That did a number on me. Very enjoyable!

Last night I was awoken in the wee hours by my drunk and angry neighbors screaming at each other loud enough for people in LA to hear. This is the third or fourth night a boisterous showdown has taken place across the street. I don’t know what my place is or if there’s anything I can do about it… The woman who lives in the house is in my Bunko group, and she’s a great person. Her two punk sons (both about my age) are the problem. How do you tell someone so nice that her family needs help or, if nothing else, to keep their pejorative opinions quietly to themselves? The restless sleep and violent dreams their quarrels cause me are worrisome.

We spent $1,000 on a plumber at the Center this afternoon. It’s just another of those little annoyances that fill my day and liken me to Stretch Armstrong. Christina was out all day gathering food at the Food Bank and then meeting with architects to discuss future plans for our new facility. We’re in the middle of a three-million-dollar Capital Campaign, with hopes of beginning construction on a three-story building, sometime in the coming year, that would allow us to exponentially expand our services. I might remind you that we are an entirely non-governmental organization, meaning that all of our funds come from individual’s pockets and from foundations/grants. One of the couple dozen hats that Christina wears is that of Grant Writer, and in 2005 I believe she applied for upwards of twenty grants! If you’ve ever taken even the quickest peek at a typical grant application – with its stack of pages inquiring about budget percentages, meticulous demographics, and myriad wanderings about past/present/future endeavors – you’d understand how staggering a number that is. And if you could only step into the whirlwind world of Sr. Christina Heltsley for even two hours at the Center, you’d see what a remarkably accomplished woman she is. The point I want to come back to, after all of this tangential praise of one of the best supervisors I’ve had, is related to the plumber who came in today. Related to Christina being out all day, leaving me in charge and overwhelmed – a feeling that I’m slowly warming up to. (Is that healthy?) The plumber pulled me away from teaching my English class for about 25 minutes, and then spent three hours giving me a headache with his incessant LOUD snaking of our rusty old pipes. Necessary, I know. But really, it’s stressful trying to get anything accomplished in that kind of environment.

Besides today’s isolated annoyance, there are numerous everyday aspects of a non-profit atmosphere that threaten burnout. For instance, our hand-me-down copier is inevitably an island amid bags and bags of groceries, making the simple art of running off worksheets for the kids another feat for Stretch Armstrong and a balancing act that could win somebody a gold medal in the next round of Summer Olympics. I have no desk. My personal space consists of a drawer whose volume is less than twelve cubic feet, and I must pick up and move my laptop and stack of work a half dozen times a day, always dodging the ESL classes and interviews taking place around the clock in our tight quarters. When a non-profit has more people offering to help with services than time and space to accommodate them, you can imagine the frustration that sets in! When I’m wholly aware that my plate is full two or three times over, and I want so badly to say NO to the next thing requested of me, but I concurrently realize that there’s simply nobody/no time/no space for these tasks to get done otherwise, I understand too well that I just need to suck it up, remember to breath, and to concentrate on the worthwhile end that wouldn’t be possible without the tedious means. Oh God, don’t let me lose sight of why you’ve handed me all this…

Oh, a highlight of my day was attending the funeral of Jessica’s ladybug. I paid my respects and blessed the tiny plot laced with fresh blossoms, smiling inside at the joy I reaped from this simple and, in the grand scheme of things, insignificant event. See, Jenn, even the most hectic of days has little nuggets of felicity and gratitude.

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Flying reindeer bring toys, but storks don't bring babies [Jan. 12th, 2006|10:51 pm]
[mood | jaded]

Many of my fourth graders still believe in Santa, but take off your rose-colored glasses and you'll see that there's nothing childishly innocent about their peers getting caught having sex behind the school down the street. A twelve-year-old girl at a public school in Redwood City just had a baby. And the vast majority of parents believe that "just telling them not to do it" is sufficient sex ed. The Catholic Church won't support education that has anything remotely to do with contraception. A man and a woman meet, they date, fall in love, get married, and -- then and only then -- have a baby. No mention of sex. Our kids aren't stupid! The media knows what sells, and prime time is peak time for kids to gather around the tube. Scantily clad women, booze, and casual sex fill their little worlds. Can't we tell them more than Nike's reverse slogan?
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Tug-of-war with Jenn [Jan. 10th, 2006|07:53 pm]
[mood | stretched!]

However marvelous being back at the Center is, I can't help feeling like Stretch Armstrong most of the time. Let me recount to you last Tuesday, for instance:

OK, second day back after two weeks off for the holidays, so I expected to feel like the life I'd previously lived in 2005 would smack me in the face and knock me to the ground. All the bustle of getting back into routines, including accepting donations of clothes and furniture from people who no longer had room in their homes now that they'd received new items to replace the old over Christmas, was magnified by endless unexpected events. A friend of mine, Fred (one of the homeless men who regulary stops into the Center once a week to do his laundry), came to me flustered and dove into a five-minute explanation of how he'd managed to wreck our washing machine beyond repair. He'd done everything correctly before starting the washer, but as soon as the cycle started, Fred had turned the dial to change the water level. Kaput! - no more agitating action, and the water wouldn't drain. Rather than come get me earlier, at the moment the machine had stopped working, Fred had attempted to fix the thing himself. When he found his efforts to be futile, he pulled all his dirty, sopping clothes from the washer and tried - unsuccessfully - to wring them out. He spilled water all over the place - which he mopped up - and soaked the floor of his car (a.k.a. his home). He swore that he would help pay for any repairs needed. His embarrassment and downcast expression tore me up. I assured him we'd take care of the washer without a problem and he left somewhat convinced. Little did I know I'd spend two hours that day troubleshooting the problem myself and waiting impatiently on the phone with different appliance technicians and such.

This was the first of many events that would pull me in seven directions at once. Tina was gone for four hours over the course of the day, leaving yours truly alone to answer the door, take phone calls, and handle concerns and problems. Oh, not to mention, I was also given a project to get done by the end of the week: compile a spreadsheet of Christmas donors with complete contact information (ohhhh curses to illegible handwriting and blank fields on donor forms) and mail merge a stack of some 50 thank you letters. Not a difficult task. Unless every single time you sit down to get to it, somebody yanks you up to take care of something else. I smile between my teeth and say I'd love to help :)  I have to credit myself, though. I'm doing a better job of taking breaths and attempting to see each encounter as an opportunity to interact with God.

Back to the idiosyncracies of the day. The phone was ringing off the hook and donors were stopping by like crazy. Regina, the Director of the Dominican Volunteers, called to check in with me, and we spent a good half hour discussing the upcoming Mid-Year Retreat. A welcome, refreshing, exciting chat, but in the middle of a lot of running around. Joaquin, Jaqueline's son, came in to type a research report on one of our computers and needed help editing and printing his final revision. Sure, I can help... I discovered - by smell - that our portable cooler, in which we temporarily stash frozen chicken in the afternoons, has a cracked bottom. Yeah, so one of the chicken bags must've leaked blood and guts and grossness into the cooler's insulation. The word stench doesn't even begin to quantify the offensivene air. Of course, not only did I clean out the cooler, but I also managed to get chicken grossness all over me :(  We ended up throwing the cooler away when bleach water did absolutely nothing.

Well, that's a small glimpse into Jenn's life in the year 2006. So far, the year is off to a fantastic and rejuvenating start. Still plenty of catching up to do!

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Here's a start to catching you up... [Dec. 28th, 2005|12:25 am]

I’m back in the Midwest for a week. That’s just long enough to catch up with high school friends around pitchers of Guinness and bonfires until sunup, visit with my Wuelina and coddle new baby relatives, and love on my family before I begin to remember that too much of a good thing is not a good thing!

 

I’m severely indebted to you in the way of updates and anecdotes, so in the disjointed style of William Faulkner (but with more punctuation), here’s what life has brought me in the past couple of months. Links to photos will be in the next round.

 

November and December were a blur at work. I came home exhausted every day. Throughout November we were registering families for our annual toy program, which took place in mid-December. The way our program works is quite unique. For weeks, perhaps even months, prior to the actual program, we received donations of new toys, games, and clothing, mostly from individuals and church groups in the area. As the program dates grew closer, the gifts amassed exponentially, and I’m positive we gathered in the neighborhood of 5-6,000 unwrapped presents. Our clients were each assigned a shopping time, during which they arrived at “The Toy Company,” as the kids call it, to choose two gifts for each child in their family. They had personal shoppers (our regular volunteers) walking through with them, holding their presents and helping them find just the right toy or doll for the kiddos. It was a lot of hard work and long hours, but rewarding and worthwhile without a doubt. True Christmas spirit :)

 

On the Monday before the kids began their Christmas vacation, they and the moms surprised Tina and me with a birthday party! Tina was so busy that she could only stay a minute, so I was happy to be the center of their festivities :)  Martina had made flautas and we had a decorated Tres Leches cake. Mmmmm, I love Mexican parties. Jennifer, one of my students, was determined to give me 23 hugs before the day was over. I lost count…

 

How ‘bout those lines at the post office?! And the price to mail a package! I won’t complain for too long, though, because at least it didn’t cost me $53… AND, at the Lenexa branch I discovered an automated, self-postage machine. Yeah, it’s great. Weighs everything for you and prints out the postage stamp right there. I saved myself at least 15 minutes in line.

 

Wireless keyboards and mice are really useful inventions.

 

The weather in KC couldn’t be better for this time of year. I must’ve brought the California warmth and sunshine with me. I was out in shorts yesterday! The vanishing snow had no choice with temps in the fifties.

 

The house smells like hops and malt – Dad’s brewing a few batches to give out at Christmas. I feel nostalgia for Soulard’s yeasty air…

 

Sergio brought home a new spelling list to practice, and the assignment was to write sentences of at least seven words for the first half of the list. The particular word that comes to mind and merits a short story: early. The sentence Serg gave, with playful nostalgia in his eyes: “I remember when it was good back in the early days.” Ahhhh, of course you do :)

 

Margarita, one of my English students, is six months pregnant with her third child. She’s absolutely huge! Just recently, Margarita proudly told me she was having a girl, and when I leaned over and rubbed her belly with excitement, a smile spread across her face. The baby was somersaulting! The miracle of life is so incredible.

 

I’m no longer a vegetarian. My meatless diet lasted about five months, and there are several reasons why I’ve changed my eating habits, but I won’t list them here. In a nutshell, the strict vegetarian diet began to bore me, and dining was no longer a pleasurable experience. I was also tired of the unsolicited (and ignorant) lectures about protein deficiency. I love to cook and I love eat! There are certain things I still refuse to eat: foie gras and veal, for example. And ideally I’d buy free-range. Moderation is key.

 

My knee is finally healed! Six weeks of zero activity and another few weeks of easing into low-impact exercise with a brace tested my patience but was definitely worth a full recovery from the meniscus injury. I started biking short, relatively flat distances again, and it looks like I may start training for a hilly weekend ride from Seattle to Portland with my dad. Yes! For Christmas, my dad took me to the local bike store to get some needed apparel and accessories. We know how to find the deals, too. And I’m stoked about the running shoes my mom took me to get. The soles on my old shoes had worn through months ago, and there were holes in the toes. It’s great knowing that although I’m making only $100 a month as a volunteer, I can depend on my parents’ generosity in providing some of the simple things.

 

I’m still church-hopping. That is, if I go to church. I really enjoy Stanford’s Sunday afternoon Catholic service. The cathedral is absolutely gorgeous, the music is energizing, and the crowd is young. Equally enjoyable is the ecumenical service in the morning, which gives me a refreshing change of perspective. Every now and then I go to the young adult Mass at St. Vincent de Paul, in the City. I’ve made most of my friends through the SVDP group, and by Young Adult they mean 20-40. This translates into 95% of my friends being in their thirties – and still single and childless. There are obvious pros and cons to surrounding myself with this particular group of folks. I love the group, though. I’ll post pictures from the Noel Ball several of us attended recently, as well as photos from the Holiday Social we just had.

 

I went on my first tour of wine country a couple of months ago. The day started with breakfast at a hole-in-the-wall seafood joint in the City: clam chowder, smoked salmon, and something like ceviche, along with a pint of beer, of course. Napa and Sonoma are about an hour north of where I live, and the colors of fall were spread beautifully across the landscape. The gold, rust, and crimson of the vineyards contrasted with a cerulean sky, and quaint wineries dotted the undulating hills. We tasted wines at a handful of places and scored some very stinky cheese in downtown Sonoma.

 

Later that day, Alyssa and I went over to the East Bay for a Thai dinner, followed by an a cappella concert at UC-Berkeley. There were seven or eight collegiate groups from all over the Bay Area. Most were all-men or all-women choirs, and they all had unique sounds and character. My favorite group had actually driven in from Portland and was all-women. They had choreographed all of their songs, and by far their most entertaining number was a rendition of a Lil John rap song.

 

Our kitchen at home has been out of use for the past few weeks. We’re remodeling the entire thing: cabinets, countertops, appliances, floor and wall surfaces. It’s nice to have everything new, but I can’t help but wonder if maybe the sisters went overboard with some of their decisions. Needless to say, preparing meals has proved an interesting task!

 

Far more to come...

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Getting around [Oct. 25th, 2005|09:31 pm]

This past weekend was eventful. You already know how Friday night went!

On Saturday Alyssa and I went to San Jose searching for a downtown area to walk around in and explore. Futile. San Jose is dead on the weekends (and I can't speak for the weekdays) -- at least downtown is dead. So we drove for 15 minutes to Los Gatos (Spanish for the cats, but pronounced -- horridly -- by locals as LASS GAADOHS... makes me shudder), where we found exactly what we were looking for. We strolled up and down the main strip through the ritzy but inviting town. Stopped into Williams-Sonoma to sample this season's pumpkin recipes and olive oils, discovered a gorgeous hole-in-the-wall garden shop that was about five feet wide and 100 feet deep, checked out brazen postcards glorifying feminism, had a little picnic in the sun, and topped it all off with a yummy gelato :)  Afterwards, we caught a couple of one-acts at Santa Clara. Being on a college campus -- and a Jesuit one, at that -- made me extremely nostalgic for St. Louis. Good memories... On Saturday night, Alyssa, Cole (a volunteer from the Center), and I went to a very neat Cuban restaurant for dinner. Fantastic food and several rounds of drinks made for a very fun evening!

All of Sunday morning was spent at the Center doing some well needed maintenance on our computers. Jenn + 11 Macs + not enough sleep + several cups of coffee = six hours of removing old programs, installing new software updates, downloading various things, and altering preference settings. Had it not been for the country radio station I was tuned into over the Internet -- at a healthy volume -- I think I'd have lost my mind. Long story made short, though: I accomplished what was needed and was grateful to have had a chunk of uninterrupted time, albeit on a beautiful Sunday, to spend bringing the Macs up to speed. On Sunday afternoon, Alyssa and I went to the Catholic service at Stanford. Holy cow -- gorgeous campus! And the church was very nice, too. An itinerant Jesuit presided over the Mass, and I loved him :)  We share the same alma mater, so what can I say?! Having been to a different church every Sunday since I've been in California, I think I've finally found my niche. Lively music, meaningful sermons, a young crowd, social justice undertones, Dominican-run, close to home... yeah, it's a good fit :D

I've been feeling so lethargic lately, since I can't do much with my knee. To be honest, I shouldn't have even walked as much as I did this weekend... Grrr. Today I just couldn't take not exercising, so I went for a long swim in our backyard pool. Don't know if that's OK, but tomorrow morning my body will let me know! Man, it was SO nice to finally do something cardiovascular :P  Hopefully I'll be able to continue swimming...

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I'm a WINNER! [Oct. 22nd, 2005|12:19 am]
[mood | well, pleasantly tipsy :)]

So I play BUNKO once a month with the ladies in the neighborhood. September was our first go, and Tina and I walked away with over half the pot! I won $25, I think. Not bad for a game of pure chance :) And tonight I played Texas Hold 'Em with the MEN in the neighborhood. First place, won $50. What can I say?! Women represent! A six-pack of Newcastle and a Swisher Sweet, and I'm good to go :) I'm living with nuns, and raking it in on the side. Can't complain. Next Thursday is BUNKO again. I aim to win :D
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PHOTOS!!! :D [Oct. 20th, 2005|11:36 pm]
[mood | restless]

Yes, PHOTOS!!! :D Unfortunately, I cannot embed them in my regular updates because I'm not a paying member. My way around paying for the service is to provide a link which will direct you to my Yahoo photos page, where you can (please!) browse through the different albums I have. So far, there are five:

* My very first visit to San Francisco back in August
* Labor Day weekend, spent camping on
Lake Shasta and nursing Todd in Redding, CA
* Celebrating
Mexico's Independence Day with the kids
* A special day spent in the city with my fourth-graders and their families. Somebody had donated to us 50 tickets for a
two-hour boat ride on the bay and a Giants game! The stadium is small but beautiful. Very modern. And absolutely NO fog on the water that day. Saw a few dolphins and many sea lions! One huge sailboat nearly ran into our little ship...
* And, finally, pics from a gorgeous weekend spent in
Yosemite. Check out the pictures of the hike/climb I did -- I still have a hard time believing I actually made it to the top of Half Dome!

Many more albums to come. I have pictures of Santa Cruz, where I was just last weekend. Man, we saw at least 100 dolphins in the span of two days! Another beautiful weekend :)

On a more pessimistic note, and having to do with the reason for which my mood today is restless... I went to a chiropractor on Monday, after having knee pain over the previous two weeks, ever since Yosemite, really. I was reluctant to go, because I knew what she'd say and I just didn't want to hear it! The pain had started off as a dull ache but had quickly worsened to sharp, stabbing pains that would literally immobilize me for a minute at a time. I'd sucked it up and tried to ignore it, but when regular walking and daily activities became painful, I figured I should have my knee checked out. Turns out my hips had been misaligned (due to patterns that develop over time with normal activity), so she corrected that while I was there. However, because my hips had been misaligned, my right hip was doing all the work and taking more of the pressure during my 20-mile, 4-000-mile change in elevation from valley to summit, stunt in Yosemite. Even with simple movements, like touching my toes and bending sideways, all the movement was in my right hip. That in mind, you can imagine the strain put on the joints and muscles in my right leg during more strenuous activity! I've experienced so much pain with any activity that I do because my meniscus is inflamed. The chiropractor's recommendation: don't do ANYTHING for a month! Grr.... I know she's right, but that's VERY difficult to hear and obey. My eyes well up when I tell people! I'm not one to sit still! But it could be much worse, I know. So no biking, no hiking, no playing with the kids, no walks in San Francisco, nothing. More time to read and update my journal, I suppose. Keep me in your prayers, though, because I know I'll be restless! My motivation is to be healthy by the time my family comes out to visit in mid-November.

Anyway, enjoy the photos! Many more to come soon!

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A daily choice: to be the priest, the Levite, or the Good Samaritan [Oct. 4th, 2005|09:49 pm]
[mood | thankful]

I was in charge of leading morning and evening prayers yesterday, and the gospel happened to be the parable of the Good Samaritan. I have heard various interpretations of Luke 10:25-37, have reflected on it myself many times, and have even led Bible studies about the passage. Never before has reading this short story had such an impact on me.

Love your neighbor as yourself. In a nutshell, Jesus tells this parable because somebody questions who is considered his neighbor. In the parable, a man is robbed, beaten, and left half-dead on the road from Jerusalem to Jericho. Both a priest (Pharisee) and Levite pass him by on the opposite side of the road. (With some research, it can be inferred that the two were on their way to the temple for worship. To stop and help this man would be to soil their garments, and they would not have been allowed into the temple with unclean robes. Consequently, to miss temple services would be against Jewish Law.) The Samaritan, on the other hand, having no religious obligations, goes out of his way to care for the man. He not only tends to his immediate needs, but also puts him up at an inn until he is well.

Who is the neighbor to the wounded man? Obviously, the Samaritan, i.e. the non-Jew. With this parable, Jesus implicitly celebrates secular good works over puritanical religious observances.

This past Friday. 4:10 PM. Wrapping up things at the Center. It's been a hectic day, I've not been as productive as I'd wanted to be, and my ride will be by any minute to take me away for a weekend in Yosemite. Door bell rings. Not today. Not now. We're shut for the day. I don't have time for you, whoever you are. Reluctantly, I open the front door. A man, a woman, and a toddler face me. Can I help you? I'm only half-listening as he says something about needing a place to spend the night. I cut him off -- senor, we don't offer emergency housing here. We're a food and clothing agency. But let me call a couple of places to appease you. I phoned two or three shelters but received negative answers. Back to the family. I'm sorry, senor, but there's nothing we can do for you today. If you come back on Monday between 1:00 and 3:00, we can try to find a solution for you. I turned to go back inside. I needed to finish my work. His face fell into his hands. Defeat hung in the air. Just then, something pulled me to sit next to him on the bench on our porch. Tell me your story again, senor. This time I'm listening...

It's so convenient to play the Pharisee or the Levite, to stick to the rules, to only take responsibility for what is in the job description. So easy to ignore God's sense of urgency and become preoccupied with my own. For what? To be self-righteous? To hand over the hard work to the next guy? Love your neighbor as yourself. God's #1 commandment. So simple.

Genuinely listening the second time around, I discovered that Jose and his family had been unlawfully kicked out of their apartment on Friday afternoon. With no friends nor family in the area, they were planning to make their way to Phoenix on Monday to stay with relatives and make a fresh start. They had absolutely nowhere to go over the weekend. Love your neighbor as yourself.

Christina agreed that we needed to help them out. I was so humbled when I handed Jose a full bag of groceries and a check for three nights at the Capri Hotel down the street. "Le agradecemos muchisimo," Jose repeated several times, obviously beside himself with gratitude.

No, please, thank you, Jesus... I mean, Jose...

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Compliments warm my heart [Oct. 4th, 2005|08:23 pm]
[mood | content]

Again, I've prolonged my journaling... Not that I don't have a TON to write about, but I just can't seem to find the time to write on a regular basis. Plus, the perfectionist in me deters me from writing a post unless I’m certain that I can do it perfectly and thoroughly. Come on, Jenn, give yourself a break! I am quite the perfectionist, as I’ve recently REdiscovered while doing an Enneagram workshop with my housemates. I’m not as anal and overly critical as some perfectionists that I know, but I do hold myself and others to high standards. Most of all, my idealistic (albeit unrealistic) vision of a peaceful and symbiotic world in which each of us lives out namaste to all whom we encounter motivates me to be a reformer. That’s one awesome quality that is often exhibited in us, the scrupulous perfectionists: that we seek to transform the world into something better than it is.

As much as I seek to magnificently change the world I live in, I can’t help but humbly accept the often subtle, though not unnoticed, actions that others are taking to positively influence my life on a daily basis. A couple of weeks ago, I was absolutely barraged with compliments over a span of just a few days:

The week before last's religion curriculum consisted of how we form and examine our consciences. The gift of conscience is really quite spectacular, for without it we wouldn't know right from wrong, and we would've likely killed ourselves off many millennia ago. We began the week by reading the story of the prodigal son in Luke, which is a classic example of reconciliation, boundless love, mercy, and examination of conscience on the younger son's part. To help the kids understand how great a gift conscience is, I asked them to think about the absolute best gift they'd ever received in their lives. I had expected them to respond with their favorite games, clothes, toys, and other material things, but the first student I called on said that the best present he'd ever received was his First Communion. WHOA! That springboarded a wave of immaterial replies: my mom, my grandma, Jesus' body and blood... and then little Uriel's answer, "Well, well, well, M- M- Miss Jenn," he stuttered, "the, the best gift I, I ever got, umm, wasn't just for me... It was fo- for everybody here... It was, umm, well, it was... YOU!" Wow!! I thought my heart would burst out of my chest! I felt a rush of something I'd never before felt, an emotion I don't have a name for... I love my kids!

I received a compliment on my Spanish from one of our clients: "Tu hablas como una latina. Tienes perfecto espanol." Cool, I don't always think I speak like a native Hispanic, but I'm glad you think so!

I met Scary Larry the other day. He took the liberty of asking me several fairly personal questions within seconds of meeting, and his personal space bubble was thinner than his audacity was subdued. He wondered what the heck I was doing working at a place like the Center, and he came around to the remark, "You didn't go to college for this, did you?!" Well, as a matter of fact, Larry... I’m sure he didn't mean it as an insult, nor did I take it as one. I’m proud of my vocation to serve!

Tutoring Sergio is always a blessing. For an hour after school every day, I help him with his homework. Well, I help him to be self-sufficient and to stay on task. He’s a very bright and capable boy, and I get just as much out of mentoring him as he gets from spending time with me. We’ve already come a long way from our first two days together over a month ago, when I spent a full hour explaining to Little Serge how (and why!) we round numbers.

Ellen, one of our retired volunteers, has started giving me knitting lessons every other week, and I can’t tell which of us enjoys it more! She’s thrilled to have the opportunity to pass on her trade to an eager friend :)

Every day I make a run to the bank and post office, which is always a good excuse to get a breath of fresh air and take a break from the chaos at the Center. One visit to the bank was more extraordinary than others. While I was leaving the bank, I noticed an old man following me slowly out the door and nonchalantly decided to wait and hold the door for him. I was captivated when he not only paused to look me in the eye, but also turned to me, beaming with gratitude, and declared with utmost sincerity "You just made my day!" Then he turned and was gone. Whatsoever you do to the least of my people, that you do unto me

This is a more trivial compliment, but when I went to the dentist a couple of weeks ago, he told me that my home care was so good, I only needed to make appointments once a year :D

One of my kids, Jimmy, gave me a note two weeks ago. Please bear in mind that this is coming from the biggest bully in the class (he can often be the sweetest on his good days!):

From: Jimmy Burga
To: Senorita Jenn
Miss Jenn, you are a really nice lady. And I really appreciate it. So I decided to write you a poem. So here it is.
I wrote your name on the wall but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the air but the airplane blew it away.
I wrote your name on the sand but the ocean washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay.
Thank you for taking off your time and spending it with us.

Uriel’s my little artist and one day drew me a picture of Jesus with a bird in his hand.

Jessica must spend more time decorating her homework than actually completing it. The quizzes and assignments I get back from her always have pictures or endearing words on them. One example: Thank you Miss Jenn for show up like a angel and you are a angel. I love you with all my heart. Miss Jenn you shine like the sun.

Each one of these kids is so special to me. More stories to come!

And to wrap up this self-affirming post – these are the most popular questions/comments that I receive in any given week:

  • When I tell people where I grew up... "Hey, you're not in Kansas anymore!"
  • When I introduce myself to Hispanic men... "Ahhhh, Jennifer Lopez!"
  • After I mention that I'm a Dominican Volunteer living with sisters... "So, you’re going to become a nun?"
  • Lalo and Maria, two of our regular volunteers/clients... "Come esto!" They know I'm a vegetarian, so they're always hoarding the soy and organic food donations for me. It gets pretty ridiculous!
  • "Why don't you eat meat, anyway?" (Do you want the full-length or abridged version?!)
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Relationships are the core of life [Oct. 3rd, 2005|10:11 pm]
[mood | loved]

Life is my apple orchard, and I tend to be quite ravenous for sustenance. Despite the numerous bitter relationships that litter my garden, my path is invariably blessed with a saccharine bounty. Rooted in God's love, this harvest not only nourishes every cell within me, but furthermore provides me with promising seeds for cultivating an Eden of life-giving companionship.

I thank God for the apples in my life!

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Showers of rain and showers of love [Sep. 20th, 2005|11:19 pm]
[mood | rejuvenated]

For the first time in the five weeks that I’ve been in California, IT RAINED TODAY!!! Omigosh, it was so incredibly wonderful to feel cool, heavy drops of water splashing on my face and to hear a choir of thunderclaps above me. The Sunshine State is great, yes, but the Midwest in me had been aching for some moisture in the air. Although they say we may be in for a long winter, as the rain rarely begins to fall until later in the year, I’m altogether content with Mother Nature at the moment. I even skipped in the puddles this evening :D

My hands reek of basil and garlic. Alyssa and I just finished preparing a pesto vegetable lasagna for tomorrow night’s dinner. She and I are in charge of evening meals for the house this week, and it’s been quite an audacious smorgasbord so far. On Monday we experimented with tofu, which I’d eaten a few times before but had never cooked myself. We had some trouble with the barbecue grill, so had to plan B our recipe and use the frying pan. It turned out tasty and was accompanied by a Kashi seven-grain blend with grilled peppers. Luckily, our housemates enjoy being guinea pigs and have fairly open minds and palettes. Tonight we cooked black bean, corn, bell pepper, and tomato tacos, and tomorrow’s lasagna calls for pesto, which I decided to make from scratch, which is why my hands smell like basil and garlic, which is why my mouth is watering, which is why I’m talking about food… I’m having fun trying different vegetarian recipes. (I changed my diet about 2 ½ months ago – if you’re curious as to why… that’s another journal entry!)

I went to the dentist today because one of my upper molars has been aching off and on for over a week. This was the first time I’d been to a new dentist in about 19 years, but Christina had referred me to him so I knew he’d be at least as good as Dr. Schulte. To be honest, I was worried about having my first cavity and felt ashamed of not having brushed and flossed enough. Silly to worry, I realized that. Anyway, to make a long story short, Dr. Alvarado was one of the most sincere, compassionate physicians/dentists I’d ever met and, after taking X-rays and poking around in my mouth for a few minutes, he saw nothing wrong with my teeth or gums. Turns out that my toothache was related to inflamed sinuses caused by whatever cold I’ve had since Thursday. Interesting. Good to know. As I left his office, I couldn’t tell if the smile on my face was in response to being cavity-free, to the Doc’s candor, or to the drops of rain beginning to fall.

As you can tell, things have dramatically improved since my post on Friday. I’ve refocused my energy and been able to remind myself of my motivations through prayer and reflection. Christina and Sue were gone all weekend at Christina’s dad’s house, so we all had some physical distance and time to simmer down and reconcile. This week started off very optimistically and is still gathering momentum, both at work and at home. I have the privilege of leading morning and evening prayers on Mondays, and before I write what I shared yesterday morning, I’d like to say something about last week’s Gospel, which was about the centurion who wants Jesus to heal his sick servant. He considers himself unworthy to receive Christ into his home, so he sends messengers out to him and, in the end, Jesus heals the servant from afar, owing his mercy to the centurion’s great faith. From this passage (Lk 7:1-10), we derive the part of the Mass that follows: "Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed." Firstly, I always wondered what THE WORD was… Secondly, I’ve always had a very difficult time understanding this implied worthless nature of God’s children because we have all been called to his supper and are blessed with his boundless love. It was awkward for me to lead a reflection about a passage to which I felt so strongly opposed. I sort of beat around the bush, remembering that Jesus did spend most of his time with and chose as his church the most "unworthy" and "undeserving" of all.

Yesterday’s Gospel was Luke 8:16-18. This passage seemed like a complete 180 from the previous week’s, and I stand by it so strongly that I want to share my reflection with you, verse by verse. No one lights a lamp and hides it in a jar or puts it under a bed. Instead, he puts it on a stand, so that those who come in can see the light. Imagine that you had an marvelous gift or some incredible insight that could change the world: a cure for AIDS; houses, employment, and health care for all those suffering from Katrina’s devastation; a peaceful solution for all nations at war; an alternative, affordable, and eco-friendly fuel. Who would want to withhold knowledge like that? Such is the gift of God’s love. Jesus, God’s human counterpart, manifested that love for all to see, hear, and breathe. People who know of and believe in God’s compassion and mercy should have an overwhelming desire to share this extraordinary gift of love with others. For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open. God knew us intimately even before our conception and had a plan in mind for each of us before bringing us into the world. He knows our every thought, motivation, need, and want. We would be arrogant to think that there is anything we can hide from him. Likewise, our earthly relationships should model utter honesty and geniality to the same degree. Therefore consider carefully how you listen. Just as we can hide nothing from God, there is absolutely nothing that God desires to withhold from us! He showers us with his grace, which is evidenced in his creation all around us. WE must listen to HIM. So often we concern ourselves with petitions soliciting his intervention in our lives, despite the unacknowledged blessings that abound in our midst. We must learn to listen with our ears, our eyes, our hearts, and our hands to fully appreciate God’s agape for us. Whoever has will be given more; whoever does not have, even what he thinks he has will be taken from him. Whoever has what? More of what? The author of Luke doesn’t say. But I’m reminded of the materialistic world of consumerism in which we live. We desire bigger homes, more luxurious cars, smarter investments, cheaper labor, more power, influence, and prestige. We get lost in the race of HAVING all that we NEED when, in fact, we ought to NEED what we HAVE. If what we have is more and more material wealth, we will never have enough. If, on the other hand, what we possess are knowledge and acceptance of God’s love, we are far richer than any millionaire on the planet.

Be a beacon of God’s goodness for all you meet! You are for me!
I wish you peace… AND RAIN!!  :P

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I live in a house that's not yet my home [Sep. 16th, 2005|09:37 pm]
[mood | crappy]

Today’s been rough. I’m coming down with something; my throat is sore, I have a constant headache, and my whole body aches. Blah…

The honeymoon period of my new life here is definitely over. In a way, this week has been a reality check for me. Responsibilities are real, deadlines matter, and lessons take planning. I have typical concerns about work at the Center, about feeling like I’ve been handed too much, about lacking in the area of discipline with the kids. I expected those kinds of struggles.

What’s getting me down is the difficulty of living in community with Christina, Sue, and Alyssa. Living on my own for a year in St. Louis has changed my habits and my standards for home life; I never had to be accountable to anybody else, never had to accommodate others’ schedules. My apartment was my apartment and I had the liberty to do whatever the heck I wanted to do. However, the entire year that I spent living by myself, I was lonely for companionship, missed sharing dinners with people and, at times, even avoided going home because I knew there’d be nobody there to welcome me.

Now that I have what I missed so much before, I’m feeling… suffocated! With all the time that we spend in morning prayer, at work, at dinner, and in evening prayer, I hardly have time for myself. Furthermore, when I do take time out and shut my door to write letters, listen to music, or read, I feel that my housemates receive me as selfish and cold.

Christina confronted me today – at work – about an issue at home. Wednesday was really rough for me, and I’d even talked about my feelings with both Christina and Sue at work, but by the time we sat down to dinner that night, I was feeling very introverted and hardly felt like talking. Turns out Christina took my behavior very personally, feeling that she’d done something wrong and that I was giving her the silent treatment. She went on and on about the pain I’d caused her by not participating in conversation during dinner, but I’d had no idea I’d seemed so standoffish. Thing is, it wasn’t only the tension at work that was bothering me. I’d also spent time and energy thinking about other things going on in my life – relationships with friends and family, faith questions, career/postgraduate decisions – and all of this was weighing on me, too. When so much is going on within me, I cope by becoming introverted, especially when my closest confidantes are nowhere near to hear me out. I tried to be clear about this when talking with Christina today, and we’ve made a few changes to my schedule at work, so hopefully the tension in the air will soon disperse.

Will tell more stories about the past week tomorrow...

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An update long overdue! [Sep. 11th, 2005|06:52 pm]
[mood | indescribable]

Hello friends!

Considering two weeks have gone by since my last post, I've got quite a bit to share, so let's get to it :)

At the Center, we receive tons of donations daily, mostly consisting of food, clothing, new toys, and books. Every now and then, somebody will call wanting to drop off furniture, bikes, appliances, etc., which are all items we don’t accept unless we have a family on our list specifically requesting them. Among the volunteers who work with us, there’s an understanding that if something is given to the Center, the volunteers sorting the donations that day are able to take one or two things that they need/want, within reason. In the almost four weeks that I’ve been at the Center, there have been several times when I’ve verbalized needing/wanting something specific, and before I even have the chance to make the purchase, it will magically be donated to us! For example, we will soon be replacing many of our kitchen appliances and remodeling the kitchen at home, so the sisters and I were brainstorming alternative ways (and places) to cook when the time came. I offered that we might buy one of those electric hot pots that can boil two or so quarts of water. Wouldn’t you know that just that item showed up at the Center within a few days?! Also, I’ve talked a lot about the bikes, yeah? I’m thankful that we have several at the house, but frustrated that all of them are mountain bikes. Since I’m planning to cycle quite a bit while I’m out here, I had even gone so far as to wonder how much it might cost to have my own bike shipped from Kansas. With that in mind, you can imagine my excitement last week when a donor dropped off two adult road bikes in good condition! We gave one away and took the other home. I replaced both inner tubes and tires, but couldn’t adjust the brakes quite right, so I wasn’t able take this one out on a ride just yet. Among other things I’ve brought home from the Center, that I would’ve likely bought anyway, are a CamelBak, pair of bike shorts, a couple of carabiners, and a manual of Mac tutorials (I’m still trying to persuade myself that Macs are useful machines). It’s amazing how the world works sometimes!

While I’m on the topic of cycling, I finally went on a ride yesterday! I’d been so anxious for it, but the best bike we had was in the shop for over two weeks waiting on a part. We got it back on Friday, so between it and the "new" road bike, I knew I was in for an adventure this weekend. The road bike wasn’t in tip-top shape yet, so I took the best of the rest. I almost didn’t even care that it was a mountain bike, I was soooo excited to just ride! The route that’d been suggested to me by a volunteer at work took me south on Woodside to Cañada, which runs past the reservoir on the way to San Francisco. The first half of the ride was mostly uphill with a headwind, and about ten minutes in I remember wondering what the hell I thought I was doing and considered turning back. Even in St. Louis, I never took the bike on a ride longer than about ten miles at once; it was mostly used for transportation to and from work and school. Within the first half-hour, it became very apparent to me how out of shape I was, but I just kept pushing. The reservoir’s beauty took my breath away when I came upon it, and by the time I decided to turn around and head home, the fog was already rolling over the mountains and the air getting cooler. Let me tell you, that tailwind pushing me home was great! I was so happy to be riding that I found myself singing at the top of my lungs! Of course, when I’d pass somebody walking the trail paralleling Cañada, I’d be a bit embarrassed, but I’d go right on belting out lyrics. At one point, I even made up a country melody and lyrics of my own:

This is my backyard, all this wide-open space,
With a pain in my butt and the wind in my face.
Oh I feel so alive on this beautiful day
Through the hills and past the waters, I make my way.

I got the sun beating down on my bare arms,
Yeah, this reminds me of those Kansas farms.
I miss those rides alongside my dad,
If he could see me now, he’d be so glad.

That was essentially the chorus I’d keep coming back to, and then I’d make up verses about missing the cows and the corn but loving the fog and the hills, about remembering rides to the Louisburg cider mill but looking forward to rides along the ocean. When I was ten I rode my first MS150 with my dad, and since my fourth tour in 1996 I haven’t really done much long-distance riding. Now here I was again, pedaling along and thinking of my dad, who was riding the MS150 this very weekend in Missouri for the 20-odd time. When I made it back home after being out for about two hours, I checked the mileage of my route using MapQuest, thinking that I’d gone maybe 20 miles. I was surprised to find that I’d actually gone 30, but glad to know that I was in such good shape. I treated myself to a hot bath with Epsom salts to relax my muscles, along with about a gallon of water to rehydrate. My muscles aren’t terribly sore this morning, and I can’t wait to ride again :D

Last weekend my good friend, Todd, invited me on a camping and boating trip with his family and friends to Lake Shasta in Redding, CA. The last time I’d seen Todd also happens to be the first time we’d met, on an immersion trip to Lake Atitlan in Guatemala. Todd had just finished a coast-to-coast bike ride across the US/Canada on his own, and I was studying in El Salvador at the time. My parents came down during Holy Week to both visit me and travel to Guatemala to meet the children we sponsor through CFCA (Christian Foundation for Children and Aging). Todd and I have been in touch since the trip but had not had the opportunity to meet up again until now. He’s currently working in a youth ministry position in Corvallis, Oregon, making Redding an ideal location to meet each other halfway. Todd's twin brother, Ryan, lives in San Jose, so I rode up with him. He's making some serious waves - both in the water and out ;) He's currently working towards his Master's in something along the lines of Environmental Studies and Renewable Resources. He's just starting an internship with Habitat for Humanities' "GreenHOME" project here in the Bay Area: http://greenhome.org/ It's a relatively new project that focuses on building affordable, energy-efficient homes with environmentally friendly materials and construction techniques. Ryan plans to focus his thesis on "green" low-income housing. Gosh, that's so awesome! :D

Back to the vacation (and this was truly a vacation!)... We spent Friday night at Todd's parents' house in Redding. Ron and Mary Lou are absolutely amazing people, and right away I felt like part of the family. On that note, I spent the weekend being called "Auntie Jenn" by two-year-old Joshie and his parents. Have I ever said how much I LOVE kids?! Joshie and I spent hours looking at the choo-choo bridge, making music with rocks in a plastic bottle, burying things in dirt, making rain with leaves, and reaching up to "touch" the bridges and power lines as we rode under them in the boat. Our group of eleven headed off to Lake Shasta on Saturday morning, intending to spend two nights camping at a site accessible only by boat. This was only my third time water-skiing, and I improved about 800%! Maybe I'm being vain, but before I'd never even managed to pull myself up out of the water, and then there I was jumping the wakes back and forth like a pro :D The nighttime campfire was fun. Kabobs, smores, and the banana boat of all banana boats reminded me of the great times I had this summer at Dwight Mission in Oklahoma.

Everything was fun and carefree until Todd and Ryan decided to get fancy in the water on Sunday afternoon. They were both on single skis attached to the boat with separate ropes, and at one point they decided to try crossing paths. That was when they both went down, and it wasn’t until we swung the boat around to pick them up that we realized Todd was badly hurt and needed immediate medical attention. To make a long story short, we spent seven hours in the ER. The rope had clotheslined Todd, leaving a terrible burn across his neck. One side was significantly more swollen than the other and the palpitations of his artery were very pronounced, leading the doctor to order a CAT scan to see whether or not emergency surgery was needed. Fortunately, the results from the test were favorable, but now it was time for the doctor to turn her attention to the bone-deep gash on Todd’s chin. If I’d not eaten something while we were waiting for the CAT scan results, I may have fainted when I saw the wound. It took her an hour and sixteen meticulous sutures to make him whole again, and all the while I was wondering how in the world she was going to put Humpty Dumpty back together again. Needless to say, we did not return to the lake that night, but instead went home to rest and thank God that things hadn’t been worse.

I arrived home just before midnight on Monday, hoping to have been back about five hours earlier because I still had the week’s lesson plans to prepare. I sucked it up and woke up early Tuesday morning to finish, realizing that sometimes that’s the trade-off for having a little fun with friends! The beginning of this past week was quite hectic, considering the emotional trauma I’d been through with Todd. Moreover, the kids were still on vacation mode when I started religion class at 8:10, and attempting to tame them was a lost cause. Miss Jenn revealed her stern side, but to little avail. I have a lot to learn about teaching; the classroom is so different than a summer camp environment. I sought some advice from various people about effective instructional and disciplinary approaches, knowing that no changes can be made overnight, but nevertheless anxious to entertain new strategies. By Friday the kids were angels, but I’m sure that was largely coincidental and not based on much I’d done differently.

I’m still making up my own lesson plans for Spanish since the textbooks are yet to arrive. This past week I focused on the parts of the body and the verb tener, "to have." The kids are on such varying levels of proficiency that it’s difficult to challenge the more advanced students while not leaving behind the others. I guess that’s how all classes are, though. You’ve always got the "smart" kids and the "slow" kids to accommodate, and I suppose that together they account for the "average" that statistics are so concerned with. On Friday we were correcting their homework in class, and I wrote on the board, "El hombre tiene una cabeza." The man has one head – well, duh, but for the purposes of the class… Little Sergio raised his hand and explained that his mom had checked his homework and that the correct spelling of "head" was caveza. I had run across this spelling mistake before in working with Spanish speakers. I knew that although people frequently interchanged v and b, it was a syntactical mistake to do so. I was careful not to discredit Sergio’s mother, especially since she was taking an active role in furthering his education at home (which many mothers neglect to do), but I explained that the dictionary spelling uses a b. The awkwardness of the situation was not seated in being challenged by Sergio – in fact, I would be alarmed if my students never questioned what they learned – but, rather, in not wanting him to think less of his mother because of anything I said. I know I don’t know everything (the Spanish word for "fin," for example), and I don’t presume to, so there’s a certain discomfort for me in taking on this role of the omniscient teacher that I’m expected to be.

Included in the religion curriculum last week were the Beatitudes. I noticed the kids having trouble saying the word, so I encouraged them to think of it as "be-attitude." Well, that interpretation inspired a lively round of "When I say ‘BE’ you say ‘ATTITUDE.’" The discussion that followed was so neat! We talked about different kinds of attitudes with which people treat each other, and I could tell that they really understood the Beatitudes not merely as impersonal biblical verses, but as a way that they could change their attitudes about others to live more like Jesus. It was so cool! We talked about the Kingdom of God as something found not only in the afterlife, but also in the here and now. We touched on the issues of peace and justice, albeit on a fourth-grade level, and I told them stories about Archbishop Oscar Romero in El Salvador, about how he, like Jesus, was killed for standing up for others. The mental picture of their complete captivation as I narrated will serve as a reassuring reminder that we are truly making a difference in each other’s lives, one story at a time.

Gosh, I could go on and on with stories! Just one more quickie before I wrap up this novelette. Mother Nature flipped the seasonal switch last week. On Tuesday the sun was shining and the air warm, but Wednesday’s skies were suddenly grey, the wind cool, and the first leaves falling. Autumn hastened upon Redwood City overnight without so much as a hint of the typical Indian summer highs. It was humorous to see the curbs and gutters fill with leaves so abruptly but, in the same breath, being so pleasantly graced with the sun and blue skies this weekend is something I haven’t taken for granted, now that fall is upon us!

Peace be upon you!
Until next time :)

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All I could give her was a shower [Aug. 29th, 2005|11:01 pm]
[mood | tired]

Today was my first day teaching in the morning, both the kids (Spanish and Religion) and a few of their mothers (computer). Admittedly, I had the first-day jitters, but less than two minutes into the classes, I felt things going so smoothly that I hardly even depended on my lesson plans. No complaints, really – well, not yet!

The afternoon, which I spent bouncing between the clothing and food rooms, making sure that all the volunteers and clients had everything they needed, was a totally different story. I spent about half an hour with Deborah, partly because I had the time to listen, partly because she obviously felt the need to be heard. Deborah came to our door wanting to shower (which we only schedule for the mornings), explaining that she needed soap and a razor because she’s Italian and her body was covered in hair. She expressed fears that somebody in the system was after her, making it impossible for her to get a job or find a place to sleep. She’d conjured plans of emigrating to Australia to get away from the system that’s keeping her down, the system that’s always hindering her from making it. The razor wasn’t for suicide, she’d assured me (we were out of them today, anyway). She swore to me that she was never having sex again until marriage. I suggested that she register with us to receive food and clothing, but where was she going to store the stuff when the park was her home? And she’s vegan, too. After using our phone to make a local call, I asked her to wait outside for a moment while I tried to find another agency that could assist her in ways that we couldn’t. She went on to have a quite boisterous, somewhat frightening, soliloquy, which I cautiously interrupted with a referral to a mental health agency. We’ll see if she shows up tomorrow for her shower appointment…

I spent yesterday in San Francisco, the city that I would like to take a moment to dub Nature’s Stair-Stepper. Retracing my route on a map, I figure I walked about nine miles, but I won’t even attempt to count the hills I climbed! I spent most of the day exploring the North Beach: wound down Lombard, scrambled up Filbert (at LEAST a 45-degree incline!), picnicked in Washington Square and, among other things, politely declined a marriage proposal – don’t ask! I decided that the yellow caution signs announcing every other HILL were just a tad redundant, though they reminded me that perhaps NOT bringing my bike downtown was one of the wisest decisions I’ve made since arriving in California.

Oh, Alyssa got here today! She’s our fourth and final community member, the other Dominican Volunteer my age. Many more stories to come, but I’m afraid my bed is calling me now…
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ZENDAGI MIGZARA [Aug. 27th, 2005|07:50 pm]
[mood | content]

I just finished "The Kite Runner," a book about two friends growing up together in Afghanistan in the 70's and 80's. Amir is the son of a wealthy Pashtun and Hassan is the son of the low-class Hazara servant who works for the family. The book tells of how their friendship and country are affected by the Russian invasion and, later, the Taliban rule. It's a novel that's difficult to put down. At times uplifting, but mostly tragic, unsettling, depressing. It's reality.

"In America, you don't reveal the ending of the movie, and if you do, you will be scorned and made to apologize profusely for having committed the sin of Spoiling the End. In Afghanistan, the ending was all that mattered... Was there happiness at the end, they wanted to know. If someone were to ask me today whether the story of Hassan, Sohrab, and me ends with happiness, I wouldn't know what to say. Does anybody's? After all, life is not a Hindi movie. ZENDAGI MIGZARA, Afghans like to say: Life goes on, unmindful of beginning, end, KAMYAB, NAH-KAM, crisis or catharsis, moving forward like a slow, dusty caravan of KOCHIS."

As I reached the end of the book, I was thankful for the circumstances into which I was born. And reminded of the reality in which I find myself here in Redwood City. So much pain, uncertainty, fear, disfortune. In the end, will there be happiness for these people who have entered my life? I can't tell, but regardless, ZENDAGI MIGZARA. Life goes on. And I'm a part of it, a part of their lives now, wanting to learn, live and love with them in the ways that I can.

Up until yesterday, my experience at the Center had been kind of tumultuous. Having been thrown into a new position of myriad responsibilities, I was unsure of how much direction to request and how much initiative to take. Something changed on Friday. For the first time in the ten days I've been here, I felt like I was sure of my place, comfortable with the daily routine, respected, trusted, needed. I assumed the role of learner when appropriate, and I even found myself in the role of teacher several times in different scenarios.

Last week the kids came back to school. I've been spending time with them at recess, coaching them in basketball, and conversing with them one-on-one in Spanish to assess their oral proficiency in their native tongue. I was shocked that a couple of them couldn't even name colors or count past ten! Or was I? Our society tells immigrants that if they can't learn our language and customs, then they don't deserve much of anything. No wonder these kids are ashamed of their parents' language and have denied themselves a part of their heritage. I'm going to try to change that. Enhance their vocabularies, develop their oral skills and teach them to read and write in Spanish. Most importantly, teach them to be proud of where they came from.

This coming week the mothers will resume their English and computer classes. I'm stoked to teach the former, but the latter is a bit more daunting for me. To start, I'm already predisposed to electrocatastrophe. Second, all we have at the school are Macs :/ I feel like I'm traveling back in time! How do people get by without a right-click button? And what is the deal with that universal toolbar on the screen? Where is the delete button -- not the backspace, the delete? All the shortcut functions are different. And don't even get me started on Excel... I guess what I'm getting at is that I'm not sure I'm capable of teaching others to use hardware that I myself am not even familiar with. Hmm...

Something else that's hard to come to terms with is the juxtaposition of where I live with where I work. I think you already have an idea of where I work. We only live about two or three miles from the Center, but in a very comfortable middle-class neighborhood. For those of you who know the Bay area at all, our neighborhood borders Woodside and Atherton. I'm told that Atherton is THE most exclusive address to have in the entire nation (though I'm not sure I'd stand by the claim myself). We're talking homes that are worth eight and nine digits. Yeah! Our humble abode has a nice patio outside with five or six fruit trees (last weekend we picked about 500 apples from ONE tree!), a chiminea outside and fireplace in, fragrant rose bushes, a pool heated by solar panels on the roof (yay for the environment), five bedrooms (mine has bay windows and a full-size bed, neither of which I've ever had in my life), three bathrooms, a huge kitchen, three community rooms, a substantial supply of wine... did I leave anything out? Oh, yeah, the voluntary poverty bit. Hmm, now where does that fit in? I suppose that limited cable, one TV, recycling bins, an oven that needs fixing, and a $100 monthly stipend count for something.

I trust you can begin to understand my discomfort in such abundant comfort, eh?

New topic -- our bikes. We've got four mountain bikes in the garage, NONE of which were in working condition when I got here a couple of weeks ago. We took two into the shop, and I spent a couple of hours this morning making repairs and adjustments on the other two. Dad would be proud of me, fixing flats, adjusting brakes and seats, cleaning gears and sprockets. He taught me well :)

I've got the mansion to myself this weekend. The sisters are off visiting Christina's dad, and our fourth community member is yet to arrive. It's nice to have the freedom to be introverted every now and then :) Tomorrow I plan to wake up early and take the BART into San Francisco. Spend the entire day exploring. Write some letters and take some photos. Drink coffee and people watch. Still deciding whether I'll be on foot or on bike...

Don't forget friends, ZENDAGI MIGZARA, so CARPE DIEM ;)
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Why? [Aug. 23rd, 2005|10:56 pm]
[mood | melancholy]

This morning's county paper had a shocking front-page story. A sixteen-year-old boy had been shot to death at 1:00 AM, thought to be gang-related. Something we have grown accustomed to reading. We lament the situation momentarily and then look past it for other news. Our calloused minds don't have the time to mourn every last tragedy.

Unless it's personal. And this time it happens to be.

The boy, whose name I don't even know, was the uncle of one of my fourth-graders, Adan. Adan's mother, the victim's sister, 26-year-old Lulu, is one of my English students.

Adan and Lulu were two of the very first people I'd met at the Center, as Christina was giving me the facility tour and we passed by their apartment building early in the morning. She was on her way out the door to work, and I was immediately struck by the sparkle in her eye, her lighthearted laugh, her energy, her sweet nature.

That's all gone now.

Adan explains how he worries for his mama when he sees her balled up in the corner of the apartment shaking and weeping. How his nightmares haunt his sleep.

Seven bullets.

A boy is dead. Left behind are his distraught relatives and his young girlfriend, pregnant with his child.

I'm praying tonight that Lulu and Adan's family will have the resiliency to overcome the terrible and fatal consequences of gangs and drugs. I want Lulu to smile again.
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"The coldest winter I ever saw was the summer I spent in San Francisco." [Aug. 23rd, 2005|10:25 pm]
[mood | enthralled]

Ahhh, yes, Mark Twain spoke the truth. It was laughable how chilly the bay was when we went in on Saturday for a stroll up Fisherman's Wharf. I would NOT have been a happy camper had I not heeded Christina's advice and grabbed a sweater and jacket from the house. I'd been in a tank top in Redwood City, a mere 25 miles south of the peninsula!

The weather wasn't all chill; as the afternoon settled in and the fog burned off, the temperature steadily rose and I was soon pulling my sleeves up, never ungrateful for the extra layers. Friends, San Francisco is a glorious city :D I love it there. Part of me is disappointed that I'm not living in the heart of it. 25 miles isn't the worst, though. A short ride on the BART. Even bikeable once I get in better shape ;) So, I figured out why the city is so named. It's so obvious I looked right past it -- and I know I'm not the only one! The Fransicans founded it. San Francisco = St. Francis. Oh yes, that's what I went to college for :)

So back to my favorite city -- I wanted to share just a few highlights of our Saturday trip (I'll have to troubleshoot the pictures later...) :

~ Spent a good half hour watching dozens of sea lions bark at and wrestle with each other at Pier 39, was it? The males and pups just returned this month from Mexico, where they go to breed every summer. Next time you need to answer a Science & Nature question in Trivial Pursuit: sea lions have ear flaps; seals do not!
~ Free Ghirardelli chocolate samples. Twice :)
~ Bushman. He's a homeless dude that hides himself behind pieces of shrubbery. As people are walking by unaware of his presence, the "shrubbery" will suddenly attack them. And then a roar of laughter and knee-slapping will erupt from the opposite side of the street, where dozens of people look on, humoring themselves at the expense of Bushman's poor victims. He must make good money with the tips he gets. This one poor lady - her friends set her up and she about had a heart attack right there on the sidewalk. When she eventually regained her senses she was red, mad and embarrassed as hell.
~ Saw buffalo in Golden Gate park -- many bike rides to be had there :)
~ Laughed at streets of cars parked straddling the curbs with one wheel on the street and the other on the sidewalk.
~ Was outraged that a nickel in the parking meter bought you a mere 72 seconds downtown! And why such a random fraction anyway? 1.2 minutes. I mean, what's that extra 12 seconds gonna do for you?
~ And finally, the public toilet. The freestanding one that looks like a little forgotten kiosk on the deserted part of the wharf. Free. Self-cleaning (walls and all, folks - I'm so tempted to take a flashlight in there during one of the cleaning cycles to see what really goes on...). It's a waste of water, in my opinion. No TP; drip-dry. And the quirkiest part of the deal: the little old guy who just couldn't care less about waiting in line and nonchalantly dropped his pants next to a cement trashcan. And he was baring more than just his plumber's crack!

The bay area is full of hills and valleys, beaches and parks, all making my muscles ache to be pedaling through on my 21-speed. The sisters have a few bikes here, all of which need to be serviced. I'm doing what I can on my own to replace inner tubes, tighten screws, and clean/lubricate chains/gears, but I'm also learning the hard way that some things are better left to the bike mechanics. The gear shifter, to be exact. Apparently, it's not really meant to be taken apart, because it proved impossible to reassemble. What can I say? I take after my dad!

As soon as the bike's out of the shop, I plan to use it for everything - getting to and from work, running errands, taking 20- and 30-mile rides on the weekends. I'm ready to ride :)

Now let's see about those pictures...
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I'm so smart! [Aug. 23rd, 2005|09:26 pm]
[mood | accomplished]

OK, these journal entries are going to be rapid-fire tonight. Allow me to explain.

So I have this aura of electrocatastrophe, yeah? Anytime I'm around something electric, something unfortunate's bound to happen. Perfect example: the sisters and I went into "the city" as they call it (Frisco) for a play on Thursday evening last week. Come to find out, the Friday morning paper's front page story highlights an electric explosion in San Francisco. Need I say more?

I'm always having computer problems. Take this Live Journal deal. Took me ohhhhh about eleven tries to successfully customize my settings. Long story. You probably don't want to hear it. And the moral: Jenn has blonde roots.

And sometimes I can't post my updates. Grrrr that makes Jenn a tigress. Ready to pounce.

But tonight I am successful :D Accomplished!
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